When I was single, I would always make fun of all the mothers who completely engrossed themselves in their kids and did everything for them. From bathing to feeding to taking them to the park to putting them to bed at night, all by themselves leaving them no time on their own. I would always think it was funny how women immersed their life totally in their kids with no escape route to their own life. How they lost their self while looking after their child?
And here I am losing myself completely in my child. It seems everything about me has somehow become everything about her. To quote an example, the last time I shopped for myself was in my seventh month of pregnancy and now Navya is five months. So it was seven months back that I found the time to indulge in myself. Ever since, shopping has been only about her. This is just one instance which made me realise how I had transformed from a carefree girl to a responsible mother, doing a tad bit more rather. Pushing it to the limit of completely losing track of my life and letting it evolve into hers.
Don't know how or why I let that happen, but I did. Maybe that is the case for most of us, we let life drift off towards our new-born so much that the 'self' is forgottten. I had heard about husbands feeling neglected as wives devoted all their time and energy towards their kids. But maybe I am the one off case where 'my own self' is being neglected 'by my own self'. Strange, but true!
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